Thursday, May 20, 2021

Outlets For Pain

What do you do to dodge your pain and check out?  What do you do when the things you used to put the wet blanket on your pain were ultimately unhealthy and no longer work? 

Maybe you rock climb, maybe you garden, maybe you seek solace in a pizza box and a beer can.  

I was a wall builder and a food abuser.  Up until my early forties I thought it was working famously. Sure there were other outlets, motorcycles and guns and fishing. Ultimately I just blocked out situations that caused me pain and pushed away anyone that tried to love me or didn't when I thought they should.

Through muchos muchos therapy, I have broken down those walls and let go alot of the unhealthy behaviors I had with food. 

It has left me with having to reestablish some of the relationships with the things I love doing because they mean something different for me now. I do them and remember them like an old friend only now it is a completely different experience.  One I forgot I was missing.

Maybe you play video games, maybe you write computer programs, perhaps a gym rat? Outlet? Compulsion?