Faith N. Hope, You Can Be A Devious Whore

I have always believed that there is a reason for everything and that I will always manage to get by. That all this clawing and scratching is somehow worth it. That I will be delivered from this purgatory back to middle America with a keener sense of self-worth and euphoric glaze in once again being able to contribute to the economy in a positive manner.

This week as been nothing short of a total test of my wits. I try not to get my hopes up and maintain an even keel and then I am at a second interview with my very fate hanging on the decision making skills of two highly trained and driven gentleman who only want the best for their organization. I can see the carrot. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I can see long term plans coming together. I try not to get excited because I have heard this all before, numerous times. I am sitting in their office selling myself without trying to sound to desperate. But the fact remains the lifestyle I am living has really started to wear on me this week.

I try to tell myself that all the hard work and the leg cramps from jumping through hoops this past couple of years is all going to be worth it. But lately I am questioning every decision's worth.

I have heard in times of struggle people put their faith to the test. I wonder what they seek out? I wonder how their god sends them a message? Although I do not consider myself materialist I used to get my message every week in the form of a paycheck. That envelope told me that everything was going to all right. I have never considered myself a very religious man. As of late I have been questioning that too. I want to know where exactly hope and Faith collide? Is one a function of the other? I am tired. I am tired of being poor. I am tired of the uncertainty.


Enjoy your day

The Miked



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Maybe It Was Dr. Seuss

Today I learned a lot about the who I am.
Today I learned a lot about the what I am.
Today I learned a lot about the why I am.
The who I am is me.
The why I am is me.
The what I am is me.
It's not so easy being me.
I need to keep learning.
Keep taking charge.
I need to keep growing.
I need to become the who I want to be.



Miked



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How Could I Afford Not To? (that is of course, if I had the money)

Not knowing things were different.
Wishing things weren't the same.
Why did you have to call?
No other place to lay blame.
Reflexes in check.
Some would say it was meddling.
And it is if you don't concern yourself.
I hope that not where you're from.
There's always a price to pay.
There's always something in it for you.
With a sale like this.
How could I afford not to?

Miked


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Thank Your Fathers Evolver.

As a person tries to grow, provided they do want to grow as a person, do we try to hold on to the past? Maybe we should hold on to different bits and pieces so that we are reminded not to make the same mistakes again? Maybe we should forgot the past and only concentrate our efforts on the future and progressing forward.

There are certain aspects of my past that I really do enjoy peeking in on from time to time. Yet there are other parts of my past that I know are best tucked away and left alone.

Recently I had a little piece of my past thrust into my face and although it was only slightly unpleasant it really cemented to me that deep down I really can make excellent character judgments. It also lets me see that sometimes right or wrong my actions can have an impact on other people lives. I know people are not perfect and we all make mistakes and for me leaving these people in the past was the way I chose to deal with the problem. I think it is what we choose to do with these experiences it what ultimately allows room for growth.

This leads me to the question: Can all be forgiven and can the past change and become part of the future again. OK so this is really two questions but I make the rules here. Can people change? Can your past become part of your future? I am going to have to chew on this a little more. I think I really know the answers to these questions in this particular case. But wonders never cease!

The Miked